5 months is long over due!

The whole new years resolution thing didn't quite work out in my favor.  A whirlwind of events have taken place and I did not hold up my end of the bargain.  None the less, I am hoping to be back on a  regular basis as I have had a plethora of ideas in the past few weeks. 

Today's rant - work!  In terms of a job, career, lifestyle change?

I love my job, but it needs some tweaking.  After 5 years I am feeling burnt out.  After I successfully completed and graduated grad school it took 7 months plus new admin to get a raise.  I know I went into an awful field,  I was set to relocate when my dad unexpectedly passed away and I made a decision to stay put. In some ways I think he was trying to tell me something, but I am still trying to figure that out.  The day that he passed I was at a meeting about opening a childcare center.  We talked that evening about checking out the small business administration center at the college I graduated from.  Needless to say, I never pursued that track.  There are too many "big businesses" running out the mom and pop centers that make it impossible to offer reasonably priced child care, pay workers a decent salary and come back with a substantial profit.  However, three months later I had an interview with one of those corporations - it offered better pay, benefits, paid time off -wow a complete change from the norm.  I accepted the position and grew to love my job, until issues arose with administration in just the first few months.  Long and short of the story she was terminated and things, we got a new boss and things went down hill.  A year later I applied for an administrative position within the company and didn't get it, but figured the experience interview would help me.  

I applied for the same position I interviewed for previously and was once again denied. Five loyal years with a company I had hoped to make a career with and I am feeling stuck.  Thankfully, I am now married and I have my husbands fantastic benefits, but I am not sure what I want to do and have no idea where to start. I have applied for numerous teaching jobs, but that hasn't led to anything.  You either have to know someone or well know someone and that isn't working to my advantage since if I knew someone or kissed ass I'm pretty sure I would have my dream job.  I've been thinking lately about what I want to do.  I would love to open a bakery - but once again the financial backing just isn't there.  I mean come on no one is going to give a near 30 year old with the income to debt ratio (credit card, school loans greater than my mortgage, a mortgage and now a co-signed car loan) small business loan.  I have a variety of interests, customer service experience, clinical research skills - I'm just not sure what I need/ want to do. Do I go back to the world of retail that I once loved, but sacrifice my nights and weekends again? Do I get a night job at Wal-Mart stocking shelves to help off-set some of our expenses?  

For now I am returning to blogging - looking for inspiration, motivation and just to vent.  I am hoping I will find some answers along the way as well.